“I was trying to be his wife.
Yet he couldn’t divorce the streets....” 💔
It’s crazy that sometimes love isn’t even enough to save a relationship.
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts like hell !!!"
Dear Summer ... if my moment didn't come right on time, yet at the most craziest time of my life, but we not know the time nor place right? OPPORTUNITY presented itself yet again. This set up was nobody but God, maybe even my mother, but regardless of who provided it, nonetheless it was there! Who said 2nd chances don't happen like we want them to? I mean there he was, still fine as ever (to me), still gave me butterflies, and did I mention still fine as ever? I felt like the girl from high school and the young woman in her early twenties all over again. But y'all know I "smized" and kept it moving. Small talk and all smiles .. I swear I still don't know what it is about him!
But he and I reconnected ... FINALLY !
When we reconnected I didn't think our situation would become anything more than two old souls reconnecting and hanging out. Honestly, in my mind I didn't even care, because I knew I was more than likely leaving back to North Carolina if I decided to accept this job offer on the table and no one in the family knew that but Lisha. But here we are several months later and I find myself still wondering what we could have been. I never knew what to consider us so I refer to myself as "the one you let WALK away". I am the one you let walk away because of fear. I wish that you believed and understood the power in second chances because I think that things would have been a lot different. We could have been having 2 a.m. breakfast dates at Waffle House because those always seem to be your functioning hours. We could have been rainy Sundays spent in bed and late Friday nights passing notes on bar napkins or at the movies. We could have been weekend vacations out of town or to the beach and spontaneous flights just so you could see more of what life has to offer. We could have been so many things but instead, we are nothing.
I wish that things had worked out differently because in my eyes I saw so much potential, but maybe I saw too much. Many will say that timing is everything when it comes to relationships, and besides friends and fears it was many things you needed to work on, but then again, so did I. Maybe one day in a few years we will run into each other again and the timing will be right; maybe third times a charm! But until then, if you are reading this just know that we could have been great. We still could be. 💕
If an opportunity is presented to you to be with someone you don’t want to lose and you allow fear or others to help you make the decision of whether to stay or go then rightfully so you deserve to be sad and stuck right where people leave you. But never allow the opinions of others who aren't happy and experiencing life to dictate yours ...
My take away and lessons of life and love have been:
1. Life is about risk
2. No one can speak on your situation with someone better than YOU !
3. Change can be good, it’s all about your perspective.💜
If you’re afraid to love wholeheartedly then you’ll never experience life. 🦄✨
